He already knows but...

By: Yna Leon

A reply to Inah Evans' status: Someday he's going to know.

He already knows when my birthday is and even changes the date to annoy me then gives me the sweetest hug when I get grouchy. He already knows my middle name and even pronounces my whole name with a Spanish gangster accent. He knows where I was born coz he has seen my incomplete birth certificate. He already knows my parent's name, how they met and even knows the musical instruments they play. He already knows the quirky pets I've had and how funny they were when I had one. He knows how I enjoyed high school and knows that I was a little tomboy back then. He knows the color of my eye, the scars I have and the stories behind them, the freckles on my hand that he noticed when we were riding a cab, my laugh lines and the line in the middle of my nose, my birthmarks and my moles. He already knows my love for art, my passion in doodling, the feel good movies I like and the scary movies that I won't watch with him. He already knows the food I love and the songs I sing so often. He already knows my phobias especially my fear of lizards. He already knows my dreams, my fears and my wishes. He already knows my worries and he gives me an assurance that everything will be alright and that he will always be there for me. He already knows about my first heartbreak coz he was there when I was crying about it. He already knows the problems with my family and that I want to have a family of my own too very soon. He already knows my strengths as a person and as a leader, he also knows my weaknesses and boosts my confidence to overcome them. He already knows my laziness especially my hatred to wash the dishes so he does the dishes for me. He already knows when I am sad, mad and thinking so he asks me about it. He already knows how erratic and unpredictable I am but still knows what I am thinking of and accepts me no matter what. He already knows my love for mayonnaise and how I mix ketchup with it to dip fried food. He already knows my bad habits and mannerisms especially how I rub the pillow case or blanket on my nose. He already knows my stroppy and whatever pouts. He already knows my facial expression together with my deep breathes. He already knows my laughs and he smiles when I do. The way I chew, drink, walk, fidget and kiss. He already knows how I snore and sleep so when I am asleep he doesn’t move a muscle and let me sleep all I want. He already knows that I’ve picked a baby’s name and knows that I want a boy for a first born. He already knows, gets annoyed at then accepts that I make sudden decisions. He already knows my Jollibee and Mc Donald’s orders, that I don’t want the chicken skin and egg yolks so he eats them for me. He already knows some but not everything. It’s sad that he already knows a lot but can’t know me from top to bottom and inside out. Because the time we spent learning, sharing, listening and watching isn’t enough. I wish that he’ll know every single thing there is to know about me, and you know what else? I hope that once he learns all of it, he’s still going to LOVE me. I want that someone too Inah but I guess I won't have him anytime soon :/